Have you ever been so lost in life that thinking about what the future holds just terrfies you? I have, or rather, I am. I've been thinking about dropping out of uni, doing something I enjoy instead. But it's so scary! To think of what I'll do without the security of being locked in to a three year degree to cling onto.
Doing something other than going to university was never presented as a serious option to people like me-good grades, bright future. "I'm gonna be a scientist!" I said. 'I'm gonna make my parents proud' I thought. Why would a girl like me ever want to do anything other than study a serious subject, at a prestigious institution, in order to get a stable, sensible job in the future? This sort of thinking has become so deeply ingrained into my mind, that the thought of exisiting outside such a system truly frightens me. Even now, as my grades drop and I find myself floundering, lost and depressed. I know in my heart I should have left long ago. I know that. Why can't I leave?
